vocal album. all new songs written in 2010 and 2011, the material came at high speed.

mainly guitars & bass, a few keys and synths, real and electronic drum sounds. no third party loops or samples

track listing. click to play
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all the worst experiences of my life
resurface at night when i close my eyes
all the things that no longer hurt in the day
plague me when i dream

i'm aware of the power of dreams
but not as a force to shape my future
they're the nightly proof that i don't belong
that i shouldn't have been born here

in my dream i'm fleeing for my life
chased for hours round the urban jungle
pursued, beaten, stabbed and shot
i'm violent in self defence

in my dream i sweat at my desk
the boss is due and he hates me
i try to achieve something but can't
i'm consumed by anxiety

 i live in such a pleasant neighbourhood
we don't really get crime round here
and there is no poverty in this area
the best of all possible worlds for me


i'm a model of western satisfaction
the rest of the world doesn't exist for me
i don't see the point of your hostile reaction
to eveything that makes life enjoyable for me

i go to the beauticians regularly
and my wardrobe is full of great clothes
we have two new cars and a massive TV
and my home's as attractive as the magazines


why should i care about human existence?
why should i know that suffering exists?
in the west we can force the world
to work in poverty for our pleasure

ok, our town has some pretty rough areas
but what happens there can't affect us here
it's true that some of them have a bad life
but that can't dent our prosperity

so much unprofessed love
so much insecurity
so much frustrated affection
so much inward detestation

with love i wished to demonstrate
how my affection could elevate me
with love i wished to intoxicate
not inundate, not remonstrate, not alienate.

so desperate to love, but not accepted
if they had, i'd have made them regret it
i wanted to support and cherish
but instead i could only tear down

i thought i had so much to give
i thought i'd love with my whole soul
i thought i could be so selfless
and not cut them all down to size
     

there are things i want that i shouldn't have
but if i lie i can get them
there are things i've done that i shouldn't have
but if i lie i can escape them


it's an inconvenient truth
that the truth's so inconvenient
and lies are rooted in hypocrisy

i lie to defend myself, to protect myself
to conceal & enrich myself
lies are what the world is founded upon
the honest are disadvantaged

the governments lie because they know deep down
they can't deliver what they promise
but they want to keep hold of their power
because it feels better than the vacuum


maybe white lies are the dirtiest of all
you lie to yourself and your victim
everyone claims to need lies for protection
but everyone hates to be lied to

the guys all sleep with any girl they can get
so where is the culture?
the girls all show everything that they've got
so where is the culture?


why do we call it celebrity culture
when that is the last thing it is?
why call it culture where it barely exists
just cheap self interest and sleaze, i insist

their relationships are shorter than anything except their careers
so where is the culture?
they want their picture taken, then they punch the paparazzi
so where is the culture?

they invite intrusion into their lives but then they don't like it
so where is the culture?
if the public's love for you is more important than your wife's
where is the culture?

everyone in power wants to keep it
anyone who's lost it wants it back
our tiny egos want some healing
ruling over others works


humans always abuse their power
we can't seem to control it
humans always abuse their power
we're just not suited to it

everyone in power hides every mistake
just to retain power
in opposition they uncover every mistake
just to regain power


power as a motive governs every party
their power or the lack of it
always governs their reaction
to every situation

truth, compassion, justice and the party line
are always secondary
to the exercise and enjoyment
and retention of power 
     
 

have you ever felt at work
that you had to get out now
have you ever hit the limit
of what a human can endure

life moves at a thousand miles an hour
relaxation extinction
but if you put your family before your career
they don't like that around here

then why accept this life as is
stress and anxiety every day
why go off daily so meekly
to be viewed as a commodity

1,000 miles of refrigeration
1,000 miles of air travel
just to bring food to your table
and your garden is covered in gravel

there is no reason to do anything
except money
there is no measure of success
except money


i don't have the money motive
money as a reason for anything stinks
i don't have the money motive
what money touches it always defiles

all your abilities are useless
unless they make money
all your talents won't benefit you
if they don't bring you money

it's true that art is quite useless
if it earns no money
all your creative satisfaction
can't compare with money

there's no worse motive to do anything
than money
if you won't do it without wages
it's not worth your time
 
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