vocal album. all new songs written in 2010 and 2011, the material came at high speed, I can't explain it!
mainly guitars & bass, a few keys and synths, real and electronic drum sounds.
no third party loops or samples track listing. click to play:
all the worst experiences of my life
/
resurface at night when i close my eyes /
all the things that no longer hurt in the day /
plague me when i dream i'm aware of the power of dreams
/ / But not as a force to shape my future /
they're the nightly proof that i don't belong /
that i shouldn't have been born here in my dream i'm fleeing for my life /
chased for hours round the urban jungle /
pursued, beaten, stabbed and shot /
i'm violent in self defence
in my dream i'm sweating at my desk
/
the boss is due and he hates me /
i try to achieve something but can't /
i'm consumed by anxiety
i live in such a pleasant neighbourhood /
we don't really get crime round here /
and there is no poverty in this area /
the best of all possible worlds for me i'm a model of western satisfaction
/
the rest of the world doesn't exist for me /
i don't see the point of your hostile reaction /
to eveything that makes life enjoyable for me i go to the beauticians regularly
/
and my wardrobe is full of great clothes /
we have two new cars and a massive TV /
and my home's as attractive as the magazines
why should i care about human existence?
/
why should i know that suffering exists? /
in the west we can force the world /
to work in poverty for our pleasure ok, our town has some pretty rough areas
/
but what happens there can't affect us here /
it's true that some of them have a bad life /
but that can't dent our prosperity
so much unprofessed love /
so much insecurity /
so much frustrated affection /
so much inward detestation with love i wished to demonstrate
/
how my affection could elevate me /
with love i wished to intoxicate /
not inundate, not remonstrate, not alienate. so desperate to love, but not accepted
/
if they had, i'd have made them regret it /
i wanted to support and cherish /
but instead i could only tear down i thought i had so much to give /
i thought i'd love with my whole soul /
i thought i could be so selfless /
and not cut them all down to size
there are things i want that i shouldn't have
/
but if i lie i can get them /
there are things i've done that i shouldn't have /
but if i lie i can escape them it's an inconvenient truth
/
that the truth's so inconvenient /
and lies are rooted in hypocrisy i lie to defend myself, to protect myself /
to conceal myself, to enrich myself /
lies are what the world is founded upon /
the honest are disadvantaged the government lies because they know deep down
/
they can't deliver what they promise / but they want to keep hold of their power
/
because it feels better than the vacuum
maybe white lies are the dirtiest of all
/
you lie to yourself and your victim /
everyone claims to need lies for protection / but everyone hates to be lied to
the guys all sleep with any girl they can get
/
so where is the culture? /
the girls all show everything that they've got /
so where is the culture? why do we call it celebrity culture
/
when that is the last thing it is? /
why call it culture where it barely exists /
just cheap self interest and sleaze, i insist their relationships are shorter
than anything except their careers /
so where is the culture? /
they want their picture taken, then they punch the paparazzi /
so where is the culture? they invite intrusion into their lives but then they don't like it
/
so where is the culture? /
if the public's love for you is more important than your wife's /
where is the culture?
everyone in power wants to keep it
/
anyone who's lost it wants it back /
our tiny egos want some healing /
ruling over others works humans always abuse their power
/
we can't seem to control it /
humans always abuse their power /
we're just not suited to it everyone in power hides every mistake /
just to retain power /
in opposition they uncover every mistake /
just to regain power
power as a motive governs every party
/
their power or the lack of it /
always governs their reaction /
to every situation truth, compassion, justice and the party line /
are always secondary /
to the exercise and enjoyment /
and retention of power
have you ever felt at work
/
that you had to get out now /
have you ever hit the limit /
of what a human can endure life moves at a thousand miles an hour
/
relaxation extinction /
but if you put your family before your career /
they don't like that around here then why accept this life as is /
stress and anxiety every day /
why go off daily so meekly /
to be viewed as a commodity 1,000 miles of refrigeration /
1,000 miles of air travel /
just to bring food to your table /
and your garden is covered in gravel
there is no reason to do anything
/
except money /
there is no measure of success /
except money i don't have the money motive
/
money as a reason for anything stinks /
i don't have the money motive /
what money touches it always defiles all your abilities are useless /
unless they make money /
all your talents won't benefit you /
if they don't bring you money it's true that art is quite useless /
if it earns no money /
all your creative satisfaction /
can't compare with money there's no worse motive to do anything /
than money /
if you won't do it without wages /
it's not worth your time
