vocal album, tracks started between 2004 & 2006, back to guitars (mainly) and vocals

completed 2007 - no third party loops or samples

track listing. click to play

oblivion - the only thing that comforts me
so i can bear your company
i feel it creeping up on me
i leave my doubts behind me
the only thing i truly crave
makes me feel so very brave
society stops hurting me
everything escapes my memory
i feel no shame in anything
now i can deal with everything
i'm free to act so foolishly
with no-one near me noticing
i want you to feel that you can tell me / what's troubling you
 as long as you don't say 'i'm depressed' / and don't tell me that you're ill
don't tell me anything if it's painful / i'll have to make it sound mundane
there's nothing that you can feel / that i can't minimise the impact of
i like to feel that you can talk to me / about anything you need
i hope you feel you can confide in me / but not about your abnormality
you were always so happy and normal / well adjusted, popular
and if your words don't fit this picture of you / i'll just tell you how they do
no you can't think like that / you have to get on with your life
everybody has those feelings / and they put them to one side
no i never think like that / i try to get on with my life
yes it hurts to hear your feelings / so i'll put them to one side 


conceit has made me dangerous
the violence in me waits for contradiction
say anything that hurts and i won't take it from you
i'll fight you to avoid facing myself
don't care if i'm locked up in a one man universe
in this one i am number one / so much better than the real one
don't care if i'm locked up in a one man universe
it's comfortable in here / i'm not coming out to face myself
i won't accept any refusal / crush and destroy all opposition
become homicidal at criticism / dismember you if you talk down to me
her - build me up until my ego's planet sized
him - ignore me half the time then harshly criticise
her - tell me i'm talented, so handsome and so wise
him - embarassed of me, publicly dissatisfied
blatant superior latent inferior / what more fatal combination could there be
blatant superior latent inferior / i behaved so very desperately
her - encourage me to be violently assertive
him - erode my confidence from deep within
her - convince me everything i said was always right
him - make me fear the very thought i could be wrong


i'm going to make my mark within this industry
i won't be happy till they're all headhunting me
'll trample who i have to oh so carelessly
cause i want everything the world still owes to me
i'll make all those around me subject to me
i'll make them all obey, if unwillingly
i'm on an upward path and no-one's stopping me
cause i want everything the world still owes to me
the world owes everything to me / everything - give everything to me
just give it all to me / everything - just give it to me
don't care about my time, just my salary
i'll work till midnight if i get enough money
there's nothing else that really means that much to me
but i want everything the world still owes to me 
my life is empty and the future's really scaring me
i'm not important, i know that too well
i can't ignore this, or the emptiness just gnaws at me
my self-importance, going to have to make it felt
give me position, i'll show you how i make it count
give me authority, i'll bludgeon you without a doubt
make me a boss, I'll grind my staff into the ground
hide my mistakes, but make sure theirs get talked about
and now my workplace has become my raison d'etre
my life devoted to the profits of this firm
i'll be assertive on the purity of trade
there's no corruption - let propaganda be my life
productivity - motivate staff - increase morale
lower overheads - i'm in charge here
the soaps are the foundation of your family life
and you've made your home look so beautiful
retail therapy keeps you sane / and makeup stops you feeling worthless
but it may have escaped your notice
you spend most of your time doing things you hate
and with your family you just get on, but no more
and then you get old and you die / and no-one remembers you
life's so beautiful and it's getting better / wherever we look we find amusement
we never have the time to be bored now / it's such a great time to be alive
i'll be taken in forever / and make myself your slave
if i never get to realise / the emptiness of cool

i don't know what it is about you / it's not that you have more brains
i don't think that you're funnier than me / it's just your magnificent disdain
i'll be taken in forever / and make myself your slave
if i never get to realise / the emptiness of cool

it's so strange to me how your coldness  makes me want to be like you
makes me want to obey you / be pushed and pulled around by you